After a few no's, I said yes
without even thinking
Slipped out of my mouth
I didn't know what I was going to find
I didn't search anything at all

An intuitive and unforced preparation
Meditative days
Cutting here
Diluting there
Nature calling me strongly

I went raw and naked

In the forest
The most powerful medicine
Letting it flow
I was the last one
I entered a gate with no way out
Among many trees I sat down

It was cold and the sun lit up brightly.
Damp. I felt at home.
Inhale
Five seconds, I blew up!
zillions of luminous white particles I've become

My body existed in such a different way
An immense nothing I became
A small everything is what I AM

A waterfall of emotions
I felt trapped inside of me
with all my strength,
I screamed
I was born as a new me

High frequency
Sexual energy
Cosmic orgasm
I had thunder hidden inside
I was a bright light

An absurd feeling
I totally surrendered
digging the forest ground
Lying with my roots
my energy engaging with earth
as everything dilutes

Feminine, goddess of nature
I saw myself and felt so powerful
Part of you, him, her, everything and everyone
I embraced the earth
communicated with her.

It's okay, it's okay. Clearly ALL good.
I laughed

And then the magic began
When I saw them
they were all elves
Yellow neon skin
Pointy ears
A veil fell

Speechless, I found myself
in shock
Was hard to believe
I didn't know what to think
And I didn't even care.
I was in ecstasy to be able to breathe that air

Thanked
My mother I saw.
The most luminous ball.
a beam of light connects us so strongly.
Cried
So much joy to be here. Alive.
most beautiful experience of my life

Love